FireKnight92

Hi! So um for the past month I've been seeing someone new, it isn't perfect. He has problems and sometimes i kinda don't know what to do, but he makes me feel amazing. I feel important and like someone cares.  Maybe I'm being stupid in more than one way. He tells me everything literally, even stuff that is bad. I kinda fell hard and fast like usual. I feel a lot for him and I know he cares about me. I know I won't give up on him right now. He talks to me every day. He tries to get me to tell him everything I'm thinking and not in a bad way, but in a you can tell me anything and I want you to feel comfortable doing so way. It makes me feel better, but sometimes I feel like I'm just unloading on him. He calls me pretty much perfect because I stayed after some of the things me told me. Some I could see why people might run away and others I've experienced too. I know I'm not perfect, I know there is a lot I will put up with before I'm overwhelmed. I just hope I can be enough. Even with his past and present problems I care about him so much. I just don't want a repeat, but I've given it up about 13 days, some more than one time, in the past 34 days and he still talks to me everyday. I feel so much better than I did with the last one. And he always try to make sure I finish, sometimes its clumsy and I need to start telling him to be more gentle, but I like when he's rough too, so I don't know how to tell him without having him be gentle all the time. So all my days off I spend with him. He has me playing Magic the Gathering and League of Legends. I do enjoy them. He wants me to share things I like to do, but I like just sitting around and doing nothing. Ok I like some video games and reading, which he likes too, but I don't really play many co-op games and the best we can do is recommend books to each other, which isn't bad we are both enjoying ourselves. He's coming to Thanksgiving with my family and I'm going to his family's too. I'm not afraid to bring him home. I really want my parents to like him and I want him to like them. So I guess it wasn't that quick of an update but I'm waiting for League to finish updating and figured I'd update anyone who reads my stuff. And I had a good time with my family when they were here haha I almost forgot to say that.

Love always,

Tiffanie

So i passed my food safety test!!! That was amazing! I loved it and I learned lots of stuff, my only hope now is I get my manager uniform and everything. That's the good news and things might work out between me and my boyfriend, time will tell. I've at least talked to him, so an improvement even if it is slight. Not going to complain though. Lol well bed is calling and I have cupcakes to make after work, so I should get going. I just hope things continue getting better.

Love always,

Tiffanie

So things aren't too different right now. I am trying to study formy food safty class/test. It is in a week. And we are understaffed at work, I worked an extra hour today because of. I have almost no contact with my boyfriend, so as much as I don't want to I might have to start concidering breaking up. It kills me to think of it but I'm at my wits end. So my life is sucking a little. I'm afraid that I won't be able to find another boyfriend, and part of me doesn't want another one. I'm going to do my tag thing on Wednesday or Thursday because those are my days off. I'm floating but afraidthat I'm going to start to drown soon. That's all for now.

Love always,

Tiffanie

So I have to say I enjoyed Otakon! It was a little crowded and I was nevrvous, but everything turned out well. I didn't really buy that much stuff, 2 prints and a manga, but I still spent a lot of money, those 3 thing made up a third of what I spent maybe a little more. Food was expensive, so I'm glad I gofered because I ended up with $50 worth of free food and I still spent money on food. I got a grab bag for 20 hours of work, it wasn't too bad, 3 Otakon shirts, 2 keychains, and an n7 scarf, oh and pokemon badges. So I think I might go again next year, maybe as staff if my 2 recommendations are enought concidering they are both first year staff. Well time to get ready for another day of work. Only 9 hours and 15 minutes until my weekend starts!

Love always,

Tiffanie

So I'm excited! Only one more day of work before I leave for Otakon! I will be gofering and I can't wait! I just need to make it 20 more hours and I can concider my four day vacation started. I still need to pack and stuff, but at least I have my list. I should be able to get it done in two to four hours depending on laundry. So I'm off to bed so I can get up early!

Love always,

Tiffanie