Well as everyone may have noticed I haven't been around too much. I haven't been too busy. I feel so empty right now not that its much of a surprise. I'm kinda sad I don't get to see my therapist for two or three more weeks because he had surgery. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to, but I have his email so I can at least talk to him some way. I miss my friends a lot. I know everyone is busy, but I'm hoping to have a get together soon. I have to talk to mom, but I'm at my dad's and hate it... my sister and I have been here since Saturday night. I've been on this really weird sleep schedule. I've been awake until 2 in the afternoon until 6or9 at night. I feel really tired but I can't sleep. But anyways I'm going to try to go through all the deviation soon, but I haven't been on much. I really haven't felt like being on the computer at all. I feel so worthless for some reason. My head is so not here right now. There's a spider living here at dad's and it frecks me out. Its kinda big and I'm soooo afraid of it but my dad doesn't have any money for gas to take us back to mom's so we have to call later to ask them to come for us. I can't wait to get out of here. It has come out at 9 the last two nights then we run upstairs and leave it alone and when dad gets home at midnight its gone so I don't understand it. Ok I'm done I just have this little common fears thing left to put up.

[x] public speaking
[] the dark
[] staying single forever
[x] Rejection
[x] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[x] closed spaces (only sometimes)
[] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[x] spiders (what some of them are creepy)
[] flowers or other plants
[] that Scary guy
[x] being touched (sometimes I just get scared by people touching me)
[] fire
[] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[x] failure (though I feel like a failure a lot of the time)
[x] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x] rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow
[] rain
[] wind
[] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death ( I’m afraid of making people sad if I die)
[] heaven
[] being robbed
[] falling
[] clowns
[] dolls
[x] large crowds of people (I hate crowds there are too many people)
[x] men (maybe its not fear of all men just the ones that wish to hurt the people I live)
[] women
[x] having great responsibilities (I just can’t handle responsibility, but I want to be able to)
[] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes
[] hurricanes
[] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
[] poverty
[] Halloween
[x] school (too many people and most of them are idiots)
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone for too long and when it's dark
[x] becoming blind (my eye sight is really bad and I don’t want to ever miss the beauty of everything around me)
[] becoming deaf
[x] growing up
[x] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] needles
[] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[] throwing up
[x] falling in love
[] super secret

Total: 21 well it could be worse. ^__^

If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of __ out of 75 common fears.


If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
**If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.**
People who don’t have any you're liars.

Love you all,
Tiffanie