Hello again everyone! Sorry I haven't been on. I have felt like crap the past few weeks. I think I have a cold but its lasted for at least 3 weeks. I am also out of some of my meds so that probably isn't helping me if I am sick. It could be that I feel like I'm sick because I can't take them. I feel hot all the time and I feel like I'm going to vomit... and I'm always tired. I've been sleeping a lot, but its not helping so I'm trying to find a way to make myself feel better. I've started to drink more water. I had like 3 or 4 glasses yesterday as opposed to one or none. I want to see if that helps first before trying other things so I know what helps and what doesn't. I think I'm going to start taking iron again because that might make me not as tired. My room looks like crap so I didn't get it cleaned by Easter, but I did help clean the house so yay! I want to get my room done this weekend. I'm going to work on it after I get this journal done and maybe write a poem. I can't sleep right now for some reason, but i feel tired and very blah. The kitties are sleeping or at least have their eyes closed so I don't really want to disturb them, but I'm sure they would love for my room to be nice and clean. I have my graduation ceremony(for my G.E.D) on the 28th. I'm excited, but very scared because there are going to be a lot of people and I don't think I'm going to feel very comfortable with the crowd, so I'm trying not to think/worry about too much right now. It's raining right now, but its very calming. I do kinda feel like crying, but it would be nice to cry since I haven't in a while which is something I'm not used to happening. I want to take a shower right now, but I can't since everyone is sleeping... so i'm just waiting for people to get up which wont be for a few hours so I thought I should work on my room while I wait. Sometimes I can't believe its been almost a year since I graduated from high school. It feels like time has left me behind. I don't more forward or backwards I just stay the same. Sometimes I wonder how things could have been different. If maybe I could have been happy and not depressed or if things would have worked out differently for me would I have been able to handle going to college... I just feel like I don't belong anywhere and I feel like the people I care about aren't there. I feel so left behind and lost. I feel like I shouldn't be happy and I don't have any right to be sad. Nothing makes sense. I'm just suspended in time or something. SO yeah this is why I don't usually sit and think about it. I think I'm done for the night/morning. I really do want to get my room cleaned. I hope everyone is doing well.

Love always,
Tiffanie